nothingness

2007-03-03T04:34:00.000-08:00

2007-03-03T04:32:00.000-08:00

omg four people $283 dinner.. lets not go there. =)

2007-02-11T19:33:00.000-08:00

sitting in front of the computer, thinking i should be doing something, but frankly can't be bothered. why do i have to be such a lazy ass. i blame genetics. uh huh. the source of all problems. the parents. of course i can't blame them, it's their parents fault and the line continues until we reach the top of the (food) chain. so i blame either adam and eve or the dinosaurs. i choose the dinosaurs. damn dinosaurs and my lack of motivation to do anything. i also blame you. that's right, i'm hallucinating. i love waking up in the afternoon.

at the speed of nothing

2007-02-11T19:13:00.000-08:00

why does life always pan out this way, you're moving a million miles per hour and when you finally stop, you're thrown back, back to where you started, immobilised by the incongruity of it all. so why is it so bad to want to be rushed, to have constant stimulation, unwilling to stop and reflect, cause when that happens..it just hurts. just to keep moving forward, and to not look back.

(e)motion ranting

2007-02-10T22:08:00.000-08:00

what would you do when your mum says she wanted to commit suicide, would you just stand there dumbfounded like i did, speechless.
what would you do when nothing had any meaning left ..that everything never did have any meaning, living a life of no meaning, no purpose, no life, what is the point, why bother, its just so much easier doing nothing, living life like it didn't mean anything, left sheltered, left isolated.
being ignorant is bliss, because the truth does hurt, the truth is misguided, and when even the truth isn't the truth, what are you left to believe in, nothing, and then it begins again.
reality sucks, living in a fantasy world always seems the better half, but we're stuck in reality, nothing can change that, so you pretend you're happy, when really you're anything but.
when you want to protect yourself, from the harshness of exterior factors, you become introverted, holding everything in, building it up, until you can't cope, and all you want to do, is to stop, is to leave it all, when everything becomes so unbearable and you just want to die.
life is full of incessant ideals morals attitudes, all which don't matter, all which do matter, and all that you just wish never existed.
i'm becoming a person that is easier to understand, but is extremely misunderstood.
so what to do what to do what to do.
i'll just leave it.
because now i don't need to think about these things
cause i've got a reason to wake up in the morning
and become a better person..

2007-01-08T23:24:00.000-08:00

so here i am...

losing the thought

the sight

the touch

the scent

the memories

the laughter

the sounds

the presence

losing my mind...

so here we are...

once again...in this [alone] world
signing off...

2006-12-05T22:08:00.000-08:00

so here i am...

i think my cat peed in my bed...

not going to sleep there again.

feeling like crap

sick

hate it.

so here we are...
once again...in this [diseased] world
signing off...

2006-11-25T21:29:00.000-08:00

so here i am...

had my second driving lesson today

hmm could i be

deteriorating at an exponential rate?

i think i could be

haha

nothing much to say

went out to the city past few days

whilst its been freaking hot

and melting away~~

feeling extremely drugged up

and slightly like the risen undead

so dun blame me for this entry with lack of entertainment factor or whatever..

man i can't even write properly.

i'll just give up now.. heh

so here we are...
once again...in this [melting] world
signing off...

2006-11-16T05:48:00.000-08:00

so here i am...

what more can i say?

http://dreyq.blogspot.com/

what can i do?

tell me what to do...

so here we are...
once again...in this [hypocritical] world
signing off...

2006-11-13T03:31:00.000-08:00

so here i am...

well today me and jax decided to go to the library to study
and guess what happened?
we did anything but!
we frolicked about northbridge
visited good ol' timezone, getting in touch with the lil kid inside us..
kinda feel a sense of molestation going on
with such inner beings intruding our bodies..anyways
then we went frolicking around the city
being the narcissist we are
took.. quite..a.. few.. photos
and here they are

Create Your Own!
yes yes
we are narcissists
and we know it
btw
didn't get any study done
woohoo~
feeling really screwed for lit, since i haven't really.. looked at my books..
like.. don't even know where they are..
let only know what they are about!
oh well, i'll just hafta do what i do best
and B**S***
heh
anyways
kinda dying at the moment

so here we are...
once again...in this [puzzling] world
signing off...

2006-11-12T02:23:00.000-08:00

so here i am...

yes, due to my utter lack of motivation
and my fantastic procrastination skills
i have managed to once again avoid the trivial pursuits of study
and made another blog! woohoo *celebrates*
*dances around* *trips over* *dies* the end.

so here we are...
once again...in this [trivial] world
signing off...

2006-11-12T02:13:00.000-08:00

cheryl is my №1. she is the moonshine, my pineapple..that i eat, my icecream..that i also eat, my bubble tea..that i drink, and the centre of my world! haha variation of yours cheryl, but yes.. you are my-ONE! (mine!)